I've done some pretty crazy stuff that I wouldn't recommend, especially while pregnant. One time, I met some hippies panhandling on the side of the road, and I took off hitchhiking with them for a week. Other times, I've gone to the bar to pick up guys, and another time I picked up a random hitchhiker because he was cute and took him to the coast with me. I'm crazy, I know. But that was right after my divorce, and I had a week or so without my kids a few of those times, and sometimes I just like to be wild.

Right now I don't feel like doing anything at all. My bf likes to go out and party, and I haven't even wanted to go out to dinner like my usual self. All I want to do is lie in bed and whine about how shitty I feel.

I totally wana dye my hair a crazy colour ... but ya know, probably not good.

I feel too exhausted most of the time to do anything too wild. But I like the idea of wanting to something wild sometimes...

I don't think it's safe to dye hair during pregnancy. I could be wrong though, but I wouldn't do it.

I have some pure henna in my freezer that I would love to use on my hair. I know hair dying is controversial during pregnancy but personally I'd be OK with hennaing in a well-ventilated area.
But of course I can't talk myself into doing it. Long boring story about why but I want to wait a couple years. Sigh. I could probably do purple highlights or something though, that might be fun. But expensive.

Hrmm. I could definitely do a haircut, but I need time to do that, and right now I have none... Maybe I will totally shirk my scholarly responsibilities for a day and just do it. That would be pretty badass, right!

Sometimes I go used clothes shopping in search of a funky deal when I'm stressed, but I *just* had a class on how capitalism makes us docile superficially happy but empty consumers and it didn't exactly make me want to go shopping. LMAO

Good to know I'm not the only one that gets this way sometimes though.

I don't have much to contribute to this thread. I get that urge often, but really haven't found a healthy way of dealing with it.

on a side note, can we please watch the use of ableist terms like "crazy"?

Thanks for pointing that out Canadian Mama, I'll avoid use of the word.

momnipotent I totally hear ya. I feel so stuck. And with winter coming I'm bound to feel even more stuck. The winters in north dakota are just so long. There's no show yet (super surprising, usually their snow for Halloween) but winter probably wont let up till May when I'm due, boo...

I'm afraid I may be depressed. You know those commercials for depression in grey and they go: are you tired, not interested in what used to make you happy, are you short toward those you love, do you feel numb, or find yourself crying at odd times... ha, I could say yep to every single one. I mean, I know what depression is, I'm only being silly, but I don't know that I've ever been depressed where I just feel numb. In the past its always been incredible sadness.

School has been really tough to keep up on. I fathom I'll be getting A's, B's, and probably a few C's, but I know I gotta at least graduate. I have to be done by may, no question about it. Though I do feel like the future may be good, a professor told me that Portland Or has some good jobs for Geography stuff (which my partner graduated with last may) so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it may be an option for us in the future. I'm graduating in environmental studies and women studies, so I imagine portland would have opportunities for me too (please please oh please...).

Anywho, yes I have to do something nonsensical. I got my prescription filled for my huge round 80s glasses yesterday, so that's nice. I got em' for $15 off etsy and just had lenses put in, super cheap! I was so excited when I put them on, they're just so in your face and I'm afraid they'd make me look like a hipster, ha! Perhaps next I need to go thrift shopping for something out of this world, ain't nothing wrong with that momnipotent, it's used right? ha! Must resist dying my hair...

I know how you feel! Like you just want to get up and go somewhere or do something reckless. I never do anything exciting though. Sometimes I try to learn to cook something new since I can cook like 5 things. Or yeah, dye my hair or cut it sometimes.

Pintsized, when I had depression when I was younger I experienced it as overwhelming sadness. But then in my late teens it started to manifest as numbness. It's hard because I always have to be on the lookout, and I'm always wondering if I've just been tired and out of touch for the last week or if I'm sinking back into it. Also, depression during pregnancy is just as common as postpartum depression, although less publicized, experienced at a rate of about 10%. Just thought I would mention that. I've been watching for symptoms myself this pregnancy, and I had actually been wondering if this restlessness might be an early sign. I'm going to try to keep paying close attention to where I am.

ooooh yeah, i know what you mean. i get the exact same way. In the past, i'd chop away at my hair. but i always end up regretting it almost immediately right after. So now, i go out dancing. It's a big stress reliever for me to go just go out and dance. The kind of dancing you'd do if nobody was watching. it sounds hella cheesy, i know. but letting lose and not giving a fuck about what anyone is thinking about your dance moves just FEELS SO GOOD. Well, works for me anyway. Might work for you too!

I don't typically feel restless anymore. I very rarely have any desire to do anything wild - I'm really pretty content these days. BUT I remember that feeling so vividly as this bittersweet tug when my older son was little.

Your post really reminded me of this old thread, even though it's not quite the same thing:
http://www.girlmom.com/node/8754

Reading my response there and remembering how I felt writing it is pretty amazing to me now. I'd definitely suggest checking out that thread if only b/c some of the mamas' posts there are really beautiful, raw, honest things.

And magically, the feeling has passed after a good night's sleep. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I actually slept full nights on a regular basis. I think I would be a much more pleasant person. LMAO!