Okay, I don't know if I'm overreacting or what, but I am exhausted and totally stressed out and having a terrible day.

I got off work, came home, filled out paperwork for work until my kids got home, and then went to the store. My food stamp card filled up with money today, we have almost no food, and I'm hungry. Of course, the kids were both exhausted from their days, and were not behaving in the store, especially the younger one. I was having a really hard time dragging them around trying to get groceries to last at least a few days. Failed.

So, I've got half a full basket, and my phone keeps ringing and ringing and ringing, I've got kids screaming in my ear, and all I want to do is go home and take a nap. Finally, after the fifth call, I answer the phone, and it's my bf asking me to bring him something for lunch, right now. He only has half an hour for lunch, and he wants me to drop everything and bring him food because he didn't bring any food or money to work. So I told him I was really busy, really stressed out, he asked what I was doing and I told him, and he said, can't you finish shopping later? So I was like FINE. So I left my cart, marched my kids out of the store, stopped at wendy's, got him food, brought it to him. I was totally annoyed and he acted all happy at first when he saw me, and then saw that I was pissed and he's like "I'd do it for you" and I said, yeah, but you wouldn't have two little kids and be pregnant and exhausted and just got off of work etc etc.

So I get to thinking. Would he do this for me? Well, first of all, I wouldn't be able to get ahold of him because he doesn't have a cell phone. Second, he doesn't have a car, so even if I did get ahold of him he wouldn't be rushing me anything. Also, I would never need to ask something like that of him because I'm responsible enough to bring food or money with me when I'm working all day. I think it just hit me how fucking irresponsible it is of him to not think about these things. He never carries money on him at all because if he does he'll just spend it all, so he gives it all to me to dole out to him. I was okay with this at first, but fuck that. I'm not his mommy, he should be able to be responsible for his own fucking money.

He's asked me to do this many times, and I only said no once, and that's because I was already really mad at him and wasn't about to be doing him any favors. But the last time he asked me, I told him he needed to stop asking me to bring him food in the middle of the day because I'm really busy during the day and I ussually don't even have a moment to set aside to do those kinds of things, especially when I'm getting a call to do it RIGHT NOW! It really pisses me off. I am not his servant.

To top it off, when we finally got back to the store my son had fallen asleep in the car, so I had to wake him up and drag him crying that he was tired through the store. So I grabbed a couple of essentials and checked out with half the groceries I intended to get, no energy left to make dinner, and no time left for the nap I've been looking forward to all fucking week.

Plus, I've been on the phone ALL DAY dealing with something extremely stressful at work. And I bet you, when he gets home tonight, he's gonna tell me to stop being so negative and to stop "stressing myself out", and he won't understand why I'm too exhausted to stay up and have a conversation with him. Because I get up early every morning, and he gets to sleep in, and I'm fucking TIRED.