I have been somewhat seeing someone since May. We've been having sex, hanging out a bit, sleeping at each other's places, hanging out with each other's kids ... He has a 9 y/o ... and of course, I've got L.

But he's nervous to do much because of drama amongst friends (he's friend with L - basically someone that I had to tell him to stay away from me b/c he would not listen to me when I told him NO I don't want to date you) and because he's nervous about being in a serious relationship. I never know if I take things like, over think things in regards to relationships. I like the way things are with him, but it is still frustrating because he doesn't like talking about it much.

He doesn't really want to talk about it too much, either. Like, if I mention it to him. He says he still really likes me and doesn't want to hurt me, but because of drama going on amongst friends and because he doesn't want to be in a coined relationship, yet.

Now, as far as myself ... I don't know what I want. It seems as though, we have this unspoken thing that we don't see other people or sleep with others. But more than likely, I would be in a relationship more than what we are now, if it came to it because I want to be.

My bff says it's not necessarily a bad thing that he doesn't want to talk about this to detail. He says, R obviously wants to date me but is obviously, phobic to the relationship thing (R says he's nervous and has been hurt in the past and usually avoids these things, which makes me question why he even told me he liked me way back in May) ... and probably doesn't want the label thing and perhaps doesn't want to date me exclusively (but that's what we've been doing in a weird way).

It's annoying because I tend to find myself in these situations. However, R is one of the coolest people I've dated or whatever because he understands boundaries and feminist issues and is pro-choice and actually fucking understands that. He just is weary on speaking about relationship between us and tends to avoid it.

Anyway, I know I haven't posted in forever but I needed to vent about this.