L (this boy who liked me) texted me earlier about hanging out. And I was like, I am doing stuff at school, I can't. And he said, well how about later? And I was like, maybe but why? And he said he had to tell me something in person, so I asked is it about the me situation? And he got kind of snappy towards me and was like, kind of freaking out. I met him in University Park a bit ago.

So he told me that when I told him how he had been coercive towards me and making me feel really pressured into dating him, it's fucked with him. He said that I compared him to the sexual assault thing we went to at school in April. I remember saying that, however I wasn't referring to him sexually, I was referring to him acting coercive towards me. From the trying to kiss me all the time to putting his arms around to dropping by my apartment unannounced to telling me all the time he likes me to all that stuff. He kept trying to tell me that we'd be a good couple and that I can trust him. And I told him I think I need to make that decision myself and I had told him several times that I don't want to be in a relationship with him. This has been going on since October. He also said he doesn't want to continue our friendship because he can't handle it. He said I never hang out with him and it's awkward when we hang out.

Well. I have a child and I can't hang out with people all the time, I am also in school and doing independent research with a professor. I also will not hang out with the same people over and over when I do have time to hang out with people. It's awkward because I knew he liked me and he even told me that. I didn't know how to act about that, he tried kissing me all the fucking time.

And I actually like someone - R.

L and R are friends. R said that he knew L was still hung up on me and didn't want to hurt him. But we both like each other and so I am kind of confused on what to do.

Also, all the community building stuff I've been doing with the collective and others - L is involved. I no longer can do that garden because it's at his house.