Ok, so my boyfriend (daughters father) and I have been together for 5 years now, we've had lots of problems, more bad times than good. We've tried breaking up a couple times but we always end up back together. Since we started dating (when i was 15) he's been very jealous and possesive, I havent been allowed to go out with friends or talk to other guys. The last couple years he's settled down a lot but because I have such low self esteem now I kind of re-enforced those rules on myself. So i've pretty much only had my daughter as a friend. He just kept accusing me of being a slut and cheating, when I never have! It really urks me that he could call me a whore, and a usless bitch all the time,even infront of my kid, when I had never even done anything, not even gone out with friends! He was the one who had actually been cheating!! Anyways, so for the past year or so he just kept saying things like "i wish you were just for me" and how he wishes i hadn't cheated on him (when i never did!) and i always have to argue with him to try and get him to see that i never did cheat. Because it feels so horrible when your getting shit for something you never did, i might as well have been doin all those things! It's like going to jail for a crime i never commited. Anyways, last Friday he goes to the gym after work (i should also add here that he is on oral steroids and has major mood swings) he comes home and just starts going off again how much of a whore i am. So I freaked out because all the emotions just build up for so long then I finally just explode and freak. We get into a huge fight, things got even worse because he just kept pressin my buttons and trying to piss me off. So i actually kind of hit him (lightly!) but he takes that as a reason to hit me back he really beat me up that night and i have the bruises to show for it. The neighbors heard and called the cops, when they came i didnt tell them that anything physical had gone on, i said it was just an argument. Why do i always try to protect his ass?! The cops said if they got called there again they would leave with my daughter.. so my bf said i was a bitch and that we were over for good and i came back to my moms. I tried to call him because hes all i've had, i just needed to hear his voice and hes just like "you broke my heart dont fucking call me anymore" wont answer my calls anymore or anything. I'm just devestated. It's so easy for him to just fuck off and forget about me and my daughter so he can go party and be with new girls. He's the only guy i've ever been with, I just need to know if this pain will ever go away cuz its eatin me alive here.